Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Recap of 3months

here i go again.....in nowhere land.....searching for something in my mind,in my life,in my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

blogger ini menjadi bagian hidup g buat nguras otak gue yg klo dah kepenuhan.utk saat ini cukup butuh waktu jg buat kepenuhan yah..... its been 3months i dont write anything.

this is a recap of this past 3months.

i moved job again.from the rimau (the one in harmony) to daan mogot again.this one ive become HR....although at first i still searcing to become a good n capable HR..i know i become better :p but srill the trauma coz by experience from working rimau still haunted me.im afraid suddenly the region head or my GM doesnt like without telling me.dont like my personality no coz of my work......
it haunted me like an owl searching for mouse...............
i try to thank for His blessing coz i only jobless for around 2 weeks before i got this job where i become HR,the work that i want to be coz of my background of course n in here i become supervisor...not bad right??although the responsibilty behind it also big....kinda jumping 2 steps of stairs at once.
thats the story of my prof life...

my personal on the other hand....its okay...on sept ona come jkt for her sista wedding....we hung out for couple of times....withthe cav ganks n of course dami n tito. although im in the middle of working so i can be around much.but il ove when we hung out,tell story of our life n around us.laugh togeher....its make life easier at that time before come back to real life.see benny after a long time with his new haircut n colour (ciee yg mau jd famous.......)

my bday on sept 17th is unforgetabble coz the ganks give me book n we can hung out together.anton give me shirts of god inc,the one that i want.luv u hani bani heehehe.........

i think thats it...i try to balance between prof n personal life...coz in prof life i know thats not fully me,bcoz i hev to bcome they leader not their friend.instead i also balance bwtween with my friends n with anton....i need that to recharge myself when i come to office every monday especially.

skarang dah mau lebaran...ga brasa bgt deh...g dpt libur 10hr yg kbanyakan g pake buat ngumpul ma anak2 n jalan2 ma anton tanpa hrs kpikiran cepet2 pulang krn bsok kerja heheheheh.....walau tetep sdikit mikirin kantor krn g hrs cek jg satpam yg jaga bener2 ga kmana2.krn kantor g walau libur dr tgl 31 tp ada yg stby utk teknisi dr 31-2nov.blm kantor yg d bks jg hrs d cek....lumayan deh bikin pulsa habis heehehhe.....

tp g seneng bgt buat keh g 3bln ini serta liburan lebaran ini krn banyak karunia dr Tuhan buat g.....g smakin brasa kebaikan dia mengingatkan g akan ssorg yg harus g mulai belajar memaafkan.seperti Dia bilang maafkanlah musuh2mu...itu adl yg terberat....yah....hanya Tuhan yg bisa bantu g buat forgive n forget.

Well itu dulu kalee yah....

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Suddenly u think...........

i never thought i would be in this position........... i really dont like it.this is the dillema of anything that ive told people not to do when they are in this position.Coz i know logically u have to choose.but it so hard.one hand this is where u already write down ur history together all these years,if u think as a blank paper.but when u see the story in that paper,u become more thoughtfull about everything but u never decided to ended the story coz a lot of thing make u tired but never desperate. but now u see ur other hand where other blank paper start to fill with words of hope n affection. story that i thought i never ever gone through again. story that i never think so much can tore my mind and my heart.

just a flash of something,i start to write that other paper. i have my own story along the way but never think to write in different blank paper.just think this is something along the way.
i really confused right now.im so happy i can feel the butterfly again but on the other hand this is dangerous.i become the old me the one that i try to left behind.the one that need chalengge,crave attention,and all others.

when i see the two paper.my heart start to sank and feel a whole inside of me.i only can pray.but still something inside my head echo 'how about if this is the truth??'
how i ever answer the question.its like one foot on the inside room n other start walking outside??i want to inside and just feel safe but the other i want to try something new so i know which one best? but do i suppose to go outside to know that??
o God.....it stuck in my head.for the first time of my life,i feel the tingle since day one.have u ever feel that?? i know its not logic.but that is what i felt when we first met.i crave so much............
for all u out there who know me.....what should i do????This is the time i really need some backup.i cant decide or wont? i dont know............

='(

Friday, August 05, 2005

Life of his own

Life of my own

day by day, step by step
like a little child learning to walk.
one step ahead from another.

time goes by like a ghost,
stealing your time and experience
hide in every corner of your life
to take it all,before you realize.

you only see in you memory
what time has stolen....
if u cant even notice it
it gone like the wind
without any trace.

cherich every moment u have
like it is ur last day.
u wont regret in your memory
or even when u cant trace it anymore.
but you know for sure
that memory has something special
coz you cherish it...

every step has its own mark.
believe it or not,
it will leave marks....

So follow your path of life
Coz that is Life of my own.

Thursday, July 28, 2005

life is a Journey

well ive been through a tough week.thinking about my decision n experience for taking a new job. it is really like jump off a cliff coz u dont know what lay ahead. but after thinking through it all, i have to be wiser in life and dont want to be quitter. untung keadaan keluarga g ga bikin g org yg gampang putus asa.

hampir g jd org yg kerjanya complain terus n ga liat sekeliling dulu. walau tetep ada pelajarannya bhw ga sgampang itu make choice n ga boleh cepet2. bener jg kt viana sebelumnya background check is a must!!!

life is a journey (ngutip kt tamara blezynnski yg lg naek daun beritanya) semua ada jalannya dah akan mengarah ke jalah lain....jd ikutin aja...setiap persimpangan membuat kita berpikit lebih matang dan menguatkan hati. hanya seekor keledai yg akan masuk ke lubang yg sama 2x. hal ini berlaku dalam semua aspek kehidupan. saat logika terhenti dan manusia mencari alasan maka dia termasuk org yg ga pasrah serta dibutakan.
Kemaren g br d wisuda...seru bgt d, dgn dandanan yg berbeda bgt d...g pake kebaya loeh...bonyok datengdr menado trus pd nginep d Hilton, compliment dr temen kantor bokap g P'Kafi Kurnia. dsana segerombolan brg lusi+cesar.... prosesinya bikin g ngantuk bgt d... udah g jauh duduknya ma beni...deg2an ternyata yah d wisuda tp sisanya ngantuk heehhehe...
siangnya nat+ane datang...senenngnya d g didatengin walau jd bertanya2 pd saat temen2 g wisuda, g dmana yah?? hiks..hiks...
mudah2aqn g bisa dtg utk sumpah nat+ane...ato klo ada ntar yg kul s2 d jkt tp kaleee =p
g ma anak2 itu dibawa liat pameran handicraft d hall sebelah...lumayan d batik2nya...g mau d jd pemakai batik sayang yg bagus tp mahal2 a.k.a toyer kt ane tp sayang krn g masih pake hak tinggi bikin g ga nyaman bgt n kaki belas jdnya...
pas sore brenang d hotel perih bgt.....tp view d kolam renangnya keren bgt d....
malemnya g tepar d kecapean....trus hari ii back to kantor lg.....

Friday, July 01, 2005

L.O.V.E

When you love someone, you'll do crazy things you can't explain, you'll deny the truth and believe in lies. When you love someone, you sacrifice, give everything you've got and dont think twice.

Love is the feeling we fall in and out of, and every time we fall off, we learn to hold on tighter...hoping that next time, we may never have to let go. They say when love knocks at your door, open it. But do you know that sometimes love enters through the back door and before you begin to notice it, it's on it's way out. why? bcoz u to focus on front door then forget bout the one that back u up truthfully.

Have you ever loved only to let it go?.. Have you ever hated someone and loved him so?.. Have you ever missed someone so bad it made you cry?.. Have you ever seen someone left alone without knowing why? ..
True: Lucky is the man who wins the first love of a woman but luckier is the woman who wins the last love of a man.

Love is not the right word to say when you feel guilty nor the right word to say when you like a person but love really matters when we share our thoughts, our minds, and our hearts...

Life has a way of changing things but not the joy that friendship brings, for friendship is like the shining moon, makes each night a brighter one. Love is not for beauty or color of the skin, but for a heart that is loyal within, for beauty fades and the skin would grow old but a heart that is loyal will never turn cold.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

The past is meant to be used as a tool for the future.
Bad experiences indeed make you bitter but the lessons learned should make you better.
On letting go: it hurts to see someone you love happy with somebody else;
but wouldn't it hurt you more to see that person unhappy...with you?
When you find arms that will hold you at your weakest, eyes that will see you at your ugliest, lips that will kiss you in both instances, and a heart that will love you at your worst, then you have found true love.
Someday, someone might come into your life and love you in a way you always wanted.

If your someday was yesterday.. LEARN
If your someday is tomorrow.. HOPE
If your someday is today.. CHERISH.

GBU

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

dear me,

wuih what a long time since i read n wrote this blogger... i miss u hehehe....i miss a lot of people nih...kmaren g ngutak ngatik friendster n liat temen2 santi n ternyata ada anak d3 inggris gtu dr temennya santi n g cari2 muka2 yg g kenal n u all know hat ada sammy hehehe lucu bgt deh...jgn2 tu anak dah jd esmod lg...ternyata setau g dia pacaran ma...aduh g lupa namany tp tauorgnya d...wah tp mo punya ce pa ga tetep lucu hehehe...........

jgn pd mikir macem2 yah....g suka tu org seblum bgt ma anton sekitar th 99 pas g masuk d3 inggris.... suatu keputusan yg g sesali meninggalkan ui tsb pdhal g tinggal 2sem kasarnya cm gara2 sulit bgt ktemu ma dekan buat cuti akhirnya g keluar bener2 deh...hiks sedihnya pdhal asyik bgt d suasana belajar...g mo cuek2 aja jg bisa klo mo gaul jg bisa....wallau g ga beljar d rumaha tp krn belajarnya kontinu gut jd enak aja gtu...

g br email temen g yg paling deket d situ yaitu mia...wah masih pd inget g ga yah?? well klo ga yah pasrah deh...jd inget masa2 d ui deh...n suasana kampus yg enak bgt tu...

wuah.... suah deh...thats the past lah yah...

skrg d kantor lg pusing bgt lg gara2 tiba2 ada blank signal gtu d jakarta...udah deh pd complain semua n g jg bingung lg info apa soalnya kan belum ketahuan permasalhannya apa?!!! skrg sih ktnya dah solved tp masih ada juga tuh yg complain...pusing deh...untung tinggal bentar lg g dah mo pulang n besok libur!!!

g mo ngurus wisuda nih besok ma benny klo jadi n trus ktemu ma naka2 deh...skalian talk about aire...hope she can solve her problem for the best.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Somebody Out there

Somebody out there are looking at me,

Somebody will be there for me
in good times and bad time,
especially when u down on ur knees
they will feel u with warness in ur heart.
in times we forget about them,
especially when u so busy with ur ambition.
so caught up with individual life.
but.....
here they are, when u need the most.
they just pop out of the blue forr u.
with their attention and they ears
to listen n hug u
without any pretention.
They are ur true friend,
without boundaries of land or time.
They love u for who u are
although they not always on ur mind
but time will tell,
who u truly friends are.
I love u all..............
u all complete me and teach me
without u all know.
God Bless

Thursday, June 09, 2005

me today.........

dear me,

hari ini g lagi libur nih...lg d warnet ma ane...wah bbrp hari ini warnet lagi tempat tongkrongan fave hehehe.... apalg nath dgn gebetan baru nya hehehe...jd pingin ktawa g inget permasalahn gebetan ini huahahah.... makanya ibu vania kayak ga kenal temen kita deh...siapa cb yg bisa mengalahkan pesona nath eheheh...knapa ga ada yg ngejar g yah...temen2 g kayakya lg pd dikejar2 yg untungnya buka karena ngutang hehehe...

ane dgn para laki2 terindahnya namun belum menemukan pilihan...nath dgn co 2 yg mengelilinginya namun masih dgn ketidakpastian akan mau dirinya sendiri.... arie yah itu aja sih tp... ups masalah kel ga boleh ....

klo g yah masih dengan cinta sesaat g hehehe cinta apa sih bo.... pokoknya seperti Jie un (ngarang ) bilang CHAYO!!!

uuhhh kangen k bdg n jalan2 ma beeeepppp maap harus di sensor... utk kerahasiaan pihak2 yg tdk ingin disebutkan namanya...hehehe

kemaren akhirnya g nelp tu anak... bawrl bgt d tp jd nya malah enak ga perlu mikir2 mo ngomong apa...g minta dititipan ma bonyoknya kartika sari sayang malah dah berangkat bt d.... lg ngidan KS nih dgn browniesnya ...mmmhhhh... enak nya...

well its okay if i just menikmati perasaan ini kan?? this is not worong right?? or it is?? well i know where the boundaries n hope i dont jump over it.... buat teman2 ku...this is just a phase of my life....

Monday, June 06, 2005

dear me,

im feeling so down this past few days....co ive been holding back ome feeling...i dont know if it alright but i know it for the best. i know im strong enough but it still haunt me... this is just a phase my best friend said...i know deep down thats true but i dont know....i like this feeling that for a long time i dont felt it anymore.... i love this ride of feeling.....

this is where my sanity keep me on the ground... i hev to finish it although i know whenu come to feeling u cant just end it but i hev to find a way... i once can make it that miracle ,i know now i can too...
i thankful that he is o kind to me that i dont have regret just memories about someone that i adore for a while. a memories that can be remembered everytime i want...the feeling...the butterfly...all what i did n how he so nice to me.... like im his friend n he know what it felt to like someone that not in right place or time...
im glad still holding me that i dont broke.... this i my weakne,when im feeling in love...i really become vulnerable but the strength from HIM n myelf that wont anybody see how weak i am keed holding me...

Ku tak tahu mengapa rasa itu hadir.
Memenuhi sisi yg tak kukira ada.

Ku tak tahu keberadaanmu kapan kan berakhir
Mengisi relung yang terdalam.

Ku tahu ku harus melewati semua asa mengalir,
dengan senyum tanpa penyesalan.

a journey has its own start and end. this is part of my jouney of life that i have to handle.

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

PETERPAN - Di atas Normal
tak dapat ku mengerti di kepala kepala di kaki
Pikiranku patutnya menyadari Siapa yang harus dan tak harus ku cari
Tetapi tak dapatku mengerti . Sesuatu yang baru ku sadari
Kau tinggalkanku tanpa sebab yang pasti Sesuatu yang harusnya terjadi
Kau sakiti aku kau yang harus ku benci
Tetapi tak dapatku menyesal dapatku mengerti Tetapi tak dapatku menertawai
Dapatku menertawai dapatku mengerti
Reff: Oooh... ku mencari sesuatu yang telah mati
AKu mencari hati yang ku benci
Oooh... ku mencari sesuatu yang tak kembali Ku mencari hati yang ku benci
Tetapi tak dapatku menertawai Dapatku menertawai dapatku Menertawai dapatku mengerti
Oooh... ku mencari tetap tak dapat ku temuiG
AKu mencari hati yang ku benci


isi hati terdalam neh...lagi bodoh bgt bbrp hari in gue!!!

dunno what to think, to feel even to make decision of something so absurd... omg.... ga jelas!!!

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

helllo me...

hello aku...hehehe...

hari ini gue lagi bodoh bgt deh... udah ah...g mau cerita2 aja ttg g akhirnya stl sekian lama ke bdg juga loh...senangnya...walaupun sedikit tercoreng oleh kejadian yg nge bt in but ada senganya juga deh... ada ade nya temen gu hehehe orgnya lucu deh...but yah segitua ja deh... g senang bgt bisa k bdg..liat jln dago trus tambahanya pas sabtu nya g nginep d hotel savoy gtu bisa brenang n dpt breakfast wah saenangya...jarang2 g tinggal di hotel bintang...hotel bersejarah lagi....

wah jd kangen bdg lagi deh...mmmh krn bdg pa krn ade temen g yah heheheh ga deng...bener nih kt benny g lama2 pedofil jg...di kantor pd seumuran ato yg tua2 kayaknya g biasa2 aja deh...bener2 deh gue... brother complex bgt kayaknya deh...

keinginan pindah bdg jd makin gede deh...suasana nya tuh enak bgt dgn cuacanya yg malem msh tetap dingin tp orng2 nya santai2 abis ga kayak d jkt smua serba grabak grubuk...g pingin slow down sdikit deh...atau merubah hidup g seidikit yg sudah terlalu monotn ini...

aduh brani ga yah g?? tapi g mo cb2 nanya ah mungkin ga yah g pindah?? start over all alone..
umur g dah ga muda lagi neih...hrs take chance asap...

well... we'll see n pray....like He said pray that its all up to HIM but do something like it all up to you...iya ga??!!

GBU

Saturday, May 21, 2005

one day...............

hello myself,

beberapa hari ini begitu banyak ynag terjadi deh.... one of my friend passed away...when i heard the news , i dont belive it coz it so sudden n i dont even know if he was sick. the truth is dami n ivan kept it from us coz they thought we really be sad if saw jorjhie like that.

when me, ane n nath saw him at carolus...omg he looked so different not like oji that we know... it made us sad n angry coz we cant see him on his last day... we like thinking,,gila yah..temen g sakit keras tp g ga tau apa2 atau bahkan g seneng2 kali kmaren2....

i cant slept well that night...couple of time woke up coz dream that i dont even recall. death dont frighten me but still put a lot of mystery for me...

well now back to reality .... bbrp saat ini krn nath lg jd pengangguran krn dah selesai tinggal ane deh...kit asering jln bareng deh...lumayan deh sebelum pd sibuk2 lagi.. hehehe...

kemaren nonton brg janji joni...film nya bodoh bgt tp fave scene g adl liat joni playing drum..w.ah keren bgt soalnya ketahuan bgt nicholas maen beneran tuh...trus liat mariana renata...so cute n humble n..inner beauty abis d...

trus kemaren vania nelp g...like usual cav penuh dgn iri 2 an heehhe...pas g cerita ma nath n ane huahahaha....tp seneng deh denger kabar ibu itu abis sibuk bgt sampae email aja males krn pfull of college work n love work heehhe....

well g dah mo balik neh dr kantor...hope life can be this simple for next week n month..

GBU


Friday, May 13, 2005

hellooooo

wah dama lama jg neh ga isi...

news flash from this past few months...
1. akhirnya g n benny dah "baekan" ma elin hehe...gencatan senjata cuy coz after all this is her life right...like his father said she become more calm down hehehe....hope she wont regret everything that become her decision. coz married is a big deal. u vow in front of God n Human.gue ktemuan ma elin+mance mendengarkan cerita2 mereka b2 utk persiapan pernikahan...jd kepikiran tp smakin menyadari bhw merid buat g masih jaaaauuuuhhhh.....still want to be with myself more.
2.gue sempet telp yuli akhirnya..berhubungan dgn berita teman2 kita merid. ibu itu ternyata masih takut katanya shg hampir setahun ga ada kabr2nya. walau sebentar kayaknya cici bae2 aja. masih kerja n ma uut.
3. ngobrol2 ma ela ttg anak2 X yg dah mo selesai satu persatu n dgn yg pacaran2 ga jelas juga yg jelas tp jd lucu krn menurut kita bpk satu itu harusnya ga gtu bgt tp jd beda aja skrg setelah ada "bodyguard". rencana mo jalan2 luar kota lg pas dah pd ujian.
dua hal besar itu yg mnrt g happening bgt di hidup gue...tentang kehidupan g sih biasa2 aja.nothing much still the same...lagi seneng punya waktu ktemu temen2 gue coz after all like ive been talk in my blogger...my life is for others although i try to make balance...
4. nyelip satu nih...g br cobain mangga apel..pernah denger ga..tapi mangga nya aneh gtu.setengah mateng tapi setengah masih 1/2 mateng abis...

udah ah...dah mo siap2 kerja neh...

bubye...

Sunday, April 17, 2005

dear myself,

wah bulan ini lg cape2 n bt2 nya ma jadwal kerja g nih...lagi sering bgt dpt kerja sabtu-minggu...hiks...hiks... bt deh...

tadi malem g aja tidur jam2 krn anton bela2in mau pas teng jam 12 d riumah rendy karena tuh anak ultah...ada onang n dindin juga...aduh si dindin itu lucu bgt tanpa tu anak hrs biat ngelucu...udah g ketawa mulu ngeliat tu anak b2 mirip gtu lama2 kayaka kaka-ade hehehehe....


oia g mo update last info ttg kekecewaan...g jd takut deh bila perubahan itu berhubungan dengan org yg sayang bgt apakah itu sahabat ato keluarga or even pacar2.... g brasa lagi berdiri di atas kapas yg salah bergerak sedikit robek ato terbang....

kayak skrg dhn sahabat g...or is she still consider me as best friend or just one of the guys?? coz she treat me like that...make me feel not worth it...i hope im not going to be like that...like i said to cavanela before...klo g dah anggep mereka jd keluarga bgt jd klo ada apa2 they will be the first to know or maybe second after family =p but i wont let them in the dark for so long...

it hurts u know...like being betray by someone u love.... i know ive been there when high school when cavanela grow apart but after that we grow stronger...for this problem, i really dont know...i think we will grow apart...coz i really feel i dont know her anymore...

everything that she told me doesnt come in action...all she share about her n anything i dont know if that really her or just...??

well...thats about it.... im talking to myself over and over again to have faith but its hard... i just follow what will be happen...but one yhing for sure...it already break apart .....

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Suasana hati

dear myself,

still feeling kinda there is a black hole in my mind, my heart, my soul that attracts all my living n life inside. feeling numb to follow throuh what happened today....every little thing...

i dont know between feeling sad, happy or in between?? dont know what to think.... it just like i make through today like robot... a lot happen to me these past few days and weeks taht kinda make me sad and struggle...my sadness coz a friend, my workplace, my home...it all tumbling down in my heart n mind...that i feel like i want to do something crazy like running away and move to some place thhat dont know mw n i dont know anybody...so i can dissapear.

God help me....i love me and i know u love me...but it kinda hard to make it...i need some miracle or just little happiness to make throgh... u know the best for me, something that can lit my face n heart n mind.

i need time to relax n try to empty my mind of all these around me that tied me so tight...

hope i can make through of these boredom n deppressed inside...still try to laugh coz i hope it kinda help me....

Saturday, April 09, 2005

Quarter life crisis

dear myself,

waktu berlalu cepat bgt ga terasa udah hamopir melewati seperempat abad umur gue berlalu. mulai waktunya bertanya akan apa yang telah gue lakukan, sedang dan akan gue lakukan selanjutnya. Memandang kesuksesan dari berbagai pandangan. apakah dengan jabatan tinggi? gaji besar?punya keluarga? yang mana menurut pandangan loe??

teman2 gue yang dah pd mo merid, pd ada yg berubah ada juga yang ga cuma berubah pandangan atau fokus saja tapi masih batas yg g ngerti sih...maklum pandangan orang single kali yah =p

utk yg masih di relationship alias pacaran jg mulai berbeda-beda d...yg pacaran dah lebih dari setahun juga mulai bingung klo ada masalha2 kecil apakah dipendam demi kenyamanan hidup? atau comfort zone yaitu ketakutan akankah ada yg mau sama gue lagi?? bakal dpt org sebaik dia ga?? well something between heart n mind saling bertabrakan.

belum lagi memikirkan mau kerja dmana? want to pursue carrier or fulfill ur dream??
pusing bgt yah between single n in relatinship semua punya masalah masing aplg yg merid. keputusan yg besar dgn disandangya DEWASA karena umur yg ditanggung...

ga rela bgt rasanya kehilangan saat kita masih bisa semau g tanpa ada cap2 yg mengganggu..mau single, mau punya pacar, mau a punya uang...semua yg dirasakan saat masa kecil.

memang bener Tuhan baik karena klo ga dibantu Tuhan Hidup semakin berat pastinya tapi karena dibantu dia g percaya bgt bisa jalanin hidup dengan segala berat serta kegalauan yg harus dilewati. penyesalan karena tetap kita darah dan daging.

fiuh berat bgt deh yg g tulis....tapi masih ada ntar disambung karena hev to go home now.

Friday, April 01, 2005

where r the gud days???

aduh mingguini lagi ga banet deh...lelah bgt mental g...hampir g jatuh krn keperluan akan perhatian pd ssorg untung masih kuat g hehehe....

g lg sdih krn salah satu temen g kayaknya ga bisa menej time buat keperluan dia sendiri g gtu...dia sahabat g but krn future husband nya mau dateng jdnya tu anak jd aneh gtu deh but nyebelin n bikin g sedih krn dia kayaknya jdnya ga melakukan apa yg dia bilang bahwa jdnya dia lebih tenangbuat selesain skripsi klo tu bpk dateng. skrg aja para sahabat dah pada ngeluh...telp susah diangkat terus sms jarang dibales hiks..hiks...tp g tau ibu itu ga bisa dibilangin harus dari dirinya sedniri gtu...sayang aja menurut g skripsi nya tinggal selangkah doang gtu bu..senen+selasa doang n masih ada sisa 5 hari buat seneng2....well g cm ingetin walau g tahu ibu itu pasti bt but thats the only thing i can do coz we all grown up kan apalg ibu satu itu can calon jd ibu2 beneran hehehe.....

oia mayang n arief udah positif tahun ini merid...wah g ma benny kayaknya masih jauh deh coz sama2 masih punya obsesi pribadi..iya ga pak :)

sabtu besok nyokap mo dateng dr Menado but ktnya sepupu g jg mau datang bareng ...g bingung aja ntar nginep dmana yah? kamar g padet bgt klo b3 but kayaknya ga mungkin nginep tempat laen deh..udah minggu bsok g dr rabu kerja malem lagi...ga bisa jalan2 deh...lumayan nih nyokap ada buat belanja2 hhehehe....

hari ini g mo hev fun ah...maen ma anton..trus nemenin anton k rscm d krn nyokapnya abis operasi but agak deg2an jd males abis nyokapnya yg masih galak gtu. kata2 benny tuh yg bikin g seneng sih...dengan pengalaman beni bersama ortu perempuan batak yg ktnya emang gtu....jaga ajrak aja kt ben....genggsi ktnya dong... lucu juga sih but bikin deg2an ...

well hev to go to work now....morning everybody

Monday, March 28, 2005

Pagi....aduk like usual g lg masuk pagi nih...ngantuk bgt deh...tidurnya kurang nih. tadi malam dr gereja ke distro hujan2an gtu lagi trus ke rumah rendy juga masih hujan. pas sampe gading waduh makin deres bo!

btw Happy Easter... pas hari jumat di tv di pasang The passion gitu aduh g sampe ga tahan banget ga nangis klo nonton film itu...g dah bilang ma anton pindah channel aja abis lg di rumah rendy gtu ga asyik bgt g nangis2...tp yah gitu pd malah nonton aduh pas mulai bagian Yesus di cambuk g dah nangis n makin keras waktu g jalan salib itu sampai sesak nafas gtu...wah cengeng abis gtu g...tp ya udah g bodo amat diliatin tu dua cowo...Film itu emang bikin g sedih bgt melihat betapa besar Kasih Yesus...sekarang aja sambil ngebayangin film itu g dah mau nangis gtu hiks...hiks...

okeh deh... back to reality...situasi di kantor g lg ga kondusif nih...something missing i dont know what maybe just miss miauw =p maybe just have to keep up the atmosphere once again?? well i dont know with this new guy around something kinda ...i dont know how to describe that...mmmmhhhh...udah ah...

temen2 di sekeliling g lg bermasalah ma cowo yg udah punya cewe nih...kasihan deh..iya ga ne hehehe but ur not the only one kok ne n i know its not ur fault this is a gme that played by two people right...but u know what g kayaknya malah digoda juga nih aduh ga asyik bgt deh udah bosen bgt g sama cara ni anak deh but seneng juga hehehe tetep de cewe...tapi kali ini g masih kuat kok abis g lagi sayang2 nya ma anton si mister cuek itu heehhe.....

udah ah have back to work...ditunggu comment2 yang membangun hehehe boleh yg membangun kemarahan atau kesenangan.

Saturday, March 19, 2005

long time since i look throguh n write about my day on this blogger. kangen bgt deh nulis disini. memang dasarnya gue biasa nulis diari kali yah..well my one girlie things....

minggu ini seneng karena after a long time g bisa ke gereja baareng anton lagi...how i miss this feeling....terus g dpt libur hari rabu-kamis kmaren...walaupun di tengah minggu tapi g seneng karena bisa ist banget2 sebelum abis itu dari jumat sampe selasa bsok g pagi...hua bete bgt deh...rabu g facial ma elin...muka g di permak abis d but seneng karena hidung jadi halus lagi...terus maem sate bubur ayam d tempat elin..wah emang d otista itu g ktemu ma buryam yg enak2 terus d. g abis itu ktemu ma mance d kfc melayu skalian nunggu elin aerobic. aduh ibu satu itu dah geda bgt badannya skrg...trus d gym g liat co2 berbadan kekar ih serem jdnya....

g ma mance ngobrol2 aja ngalor ngidul catch up things...i miss those days when we just hang out but i guess times change so our needs ang responsibilities that comes with that. mance skrg dah kerja jg,buat modal ktnya hehehe...cant wait to see her marry coz a lot of things that she gone through to get there.
klo g mah...masih jauh bo!! buat diri sendiri aja masih belum mampu...belum settle g.but im happy if i see around me happy =p

rabu itu g jg nginep d rmh elin...br tidurnya jam2 gtu karena ngobrol2 trus. bsoknya g k distro d seperti biasa.pulang bareng anton. 2 hari yg menyenangkan deh...jumat g kerja dengan santai deh...walau pusing karena d kantor ada perubahan utk isi aconet... itu tuh kode2 atas apa aja info yg diminta customer ataupun complain...angka2nya buanyak bgt trus ada perubahan2 d.

waduh ngomongin kerjaan g jd keinget g janji call customer...waduh pusing deh...mudah2an ga bete d dia. g telp bsok deh.aduh pusing deh...

well must get back neh...g mo maem dulu trus balik d k rmh...tidur buat kerja lg bsok pagi.




Friday, March 11, 2005

Nyepi Day

wah hari ini libur gtu...tgl merah but g masuk hiks...hiks...gpp dong, untung dihitung lembur...ngejar setoran bgt g =p iya nih mau belanja2 besok soalnya ada yg mau g beli gtu buat bulan depan ..yaitu jaket bahan aduh apa yah namanya..pokonya keren gtu deh...menurut g loh...

oia film banyu biru si tora sudiro yg maen dah ada loh...waktu itu pas nonton arisan ma gue siapa yg bilang suka ma tora....wah di film ini dia lucu bgt loh...

pa kabar yah anak2 yg laen...terakhir g cm ktemu ma elin doang...yg laen pada sibuk...mance malah lg saling ketemuan ma mertua. =p

well....another day...g ambil senengnya aja n sekalian nunggu soalnya ntar ada kumpul ma ela gtu...hari ela ultah deh...

udahah...back to work...

Nyepi Day

wah hari ini libur gtu...tgl merah but g masuk hiks...hiks...gpp dong, untung dihitung lembur...ngejar setoran bgt g =p iya nih mau belanja2 besok soalnya ada yg mau g beli gtu buat bulan depan ..yaitu jaket bahan aduh apa yah namanya..pokonya keren gtu deh...menurut g loh...

oia film banyu biru si tora sudiro yg maen dah ada loh...waktu itu pas nonton arisan ma gue siapa yg bilang suka ma tora....wah di film ini dia lucu bgt loh...

pa kabar yah anak2 yg laen...terakhir g cm ktemu ma elin doang...yg laen pada sibuk...mance malah lg saling ketemuan ma mertua. =p

well....another day...g ambil senengnya aja n sekalian nunggu soalnya ntar ada kumpul ma ela gtu...hari ela ultah deh...

udahah...back to work...

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

wah,,,,gue lagi break nih...akhirnya setelah sekian lama bisa isi blogger ini lagi...selama seminggu ini banyak bgt kejadian deh...dan kebanyakan berita2 yg gue dpt adalah yg sedih2... =(
minggu kemaren g ktemuan ma beny,elin n mance...wah bu mance bw kabar baik klo bakal merid tahun ini...menurut gue ini kabar baik but buruknya dalah setelah itu ibu satu itu akanmakin sibuk tur bareng band Harapan Jaya...pernah denger ga?? satu lagi deh hilang...terus ga lama g dpt berita elin bakal dilamar tahun ini walau ga tau merid kapan...g seneng temen g yg satu itu jd settle deh n calonnya udah settle deh walau bakal diboyong tuh anak k melb =( g pikir masih tahun depan but kabar terbaru adalah bakal dipercepat krn dah k2 nya males jauh2an lagi n kira2 juli setelah elin selesai skripsi dan wisuda...

huahhhh hiks..hikss....g kd sebel ma aussie nih..temen2 g hilang satupersatu ke tempat itu...walau bakal wisuda bareng n pesta disini tapi abis itu hilang....hiks...hiks....sedih bgt de...
g bukan merasa pressure pd merid semua temen2 g malah jd sedih n semakin ga siap deh buat omitmen seumur hidup seperti itu walo g bakal seneng bisa tigngal bareng anton but klo tiap hari mesti ktemu dan masalh ekonomi jd masalah bersama kayaknya g belum tahan pressure itu d...

pertengahan tahun ini hidup g akan beda bgt deh..sekarang aja udah dimulai dengan ketua tim g dah resmi pindah...wlalu penggantinya mas andri asyik juga but tetep atmosfirnya beda aja kali yah..biasa liat ketua tim g dgn muka lucu n juteknya itu hehehe sekarang dpt mas-mas...walau iwan dpt lawan jdnya but different lah...baru seminggu sih....

g butuh jalan2 bgt nih...thanks God bgt jumat-sabtu bsok g libur walau hr minggu masuk pagi but lumayan lah drpd malem....terus minggu depan g dpt jadwal jan 7.30 sampe 14.00...lumayan isa leha2 dikit n banyakin tidur =p

pa kaba2nya yah anak2 yg lain?? g dah jarang2 sms san neh...

udah ah..must back to work

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Khayalan Tingkat Tinggi
By Peterpan
Awal ku melihat
Kuyakin ini bukanlah yg biasa
Mengagumkan Melemahkan aku
Melihat tatap matanya
Garis tawanya
Waktu berhenti Apabila ku memandangnya
Mengagumkan Melemahkan aku
Melihat tatap matanya
Khayalan ini
Setinggi tingginya
Seindah indahnya
Tempatku memikirkannya
Bila kudapat
Kusimpan wajahnya
Memegang indahnya
Atau memilikinya
Yang ku nantiS
aat memegang tangannya
Sampai nanti
Tetap memegang tangannya
I dedicated this song for everyone who like to just look but not try or maybe know Love not always be together....
jangan tersinggung yah sapi2 yang membaca lagu ini but bener kan...sering ngayal.... =p

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Goood Morning....

wah senangya minggu ini g dpt pagi n office hour from 7to4pm....trus pagi dpt jemputan lagi dari pdk kopi lumayan deh.apalagi hari ini dr jam 2 malem hujan gede bgt gtu, dah kayak badai bgt..g aja sampe kebangun.

oia g mau ngomongin film "Tentang Dia" by Rudy Soedjarwo...keren deh..walau dari segi cerita agak pelan alurnya but isi ceritanya ga boring n visual nya keren bgt loh...tau ga syuttingnya di gading. jd brasa deket bgt trus cerita basic ttg pengkhianatan serta hrapan tuh bikin deket deh sama real life tapi ga cengeng.

ada satu adegan si gadis (nama pemeran cewe disitu) dia duduk diatas gedung cempaka mas n dari arah kiri tuh awannya yang biru muda dan di sela-selanya keluar cahaya tipis dari matahari...wuah keren bgt deh...

Basic story: seorang cewe bernama gadis yg sakit hati krn penkhianatan dr co n sahabatnya yg akhirnya jadian malah hamil...Gadis jd ga brani lagi buka hatinya buat siapapun..ada seorang co bernama Randu...temen Gadis n berusaha membuka hati Gadis walaupun banyak orang yg suka ma ni co. ada seorang ce bernama Rudi..ce yg lari dr rumah krn waktu kecil ngeliat ade nya disiksa ortu sampai mati. Rudi bertemu Gadis n jd deket krn krapuhan Gadis bikin Rudi teringat akan ade nya...

keren bgt liat gimana Gadis jd punya semangat bsama Rudi tapi sedih liat usaha Randu yg buat buka hati Gadis tp masih tambeng gtu deh.

aduh menyentuh hati bgt deh...g nonton ma ane, dami n hans...yg rencana pd ngikut lainnya ga jelas gtu jdnya sisa b4 deh. Dami brasa karena ktnya mirip ma pengalamannya...pengalaman yg mana tuh dam....g sih senyum2 aja gtu deh...oia d gadign g akhirnya bisa melihat Fabiola..pd inget kan...emang bener deh describe anak2 ttg dia..but she nice u know in her own way...

lumayan minggu kmaren buat refreshing g...trus malem g dijemput ma anton deh...wah dah seminggu gtu g ga ktemu dia..i miss him so muach =p...

well must back to work... film tentang dia akan dilanjutkan okay..

Friday, February 18, 2005

happy Bday to us...Cavanela...well..well tua juga persahabatan kita n semakin matang..ciee vita...wah na..same feeling nih melintasi benua =p iya nih g jg lagi kangen bgt ma anak-anak juga...
minggu besok rencananya mau jalan ma ane nnath tapi tampaknya out of nowhere benny g ajak aja trus elin n ternyata kata ane tiba2 dami pun yg ga jelas tau drmn nanya k ane buat ikutan nonton trus..berkembang menjadi dr brian,adit,bahkan u know what hans!!! pasti pd wondering well pd tanya ma ane langsung aja yah..ato klo g dah dpt permission dr ane buat cerita disini..g cerita hehehe....

gila bgt deh!!! 2 hari ini dpt berita dri ane,nat n beni lumayan cheer my day...untung pula hr ini g dpt ist jam9.30 jd buka mail deh karena sekalian dah mau pulang...

nothing much happen di tempat kerja...hanya brasa melepas miauw aja hari demi hari nih..sambil mikir ntar yg gantiin siapa yah..trus orangya kayak apa yah???

but g lg bt jg neh krn anton kemaren2 ga sms2 g gtu lagi sibuk dengan kerjaannya jadi brasa ditinggalkan...pengaruh PMS juga kali yah but g pasca krn pra nya malah g ga brasa apa2 gtu...g sampai bilang ma anton ga kangen yah..hiks..hiks...but td tuh anak cepet mengerti g sedih jd sms deh n senangnya bhwa minggu anton besok bisa ikut minggu =)

besok masih masuk deh...buetee...have to go now ditunggu jemputan pulang.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

waduh...hari ini tim g ga ada TL dan juga VTL alias ga ada ketua dan wakil ketua udah gtu ada 2 orang yg 24 hr jadi sepi bgt deh...

hari ini gue seneng karena beny,nath, n ane nelpon gue lumayan cheer my day deh...abis dah mulai boring setelah kerja siang 4hari berturut turut bo...belum lagi masih ada jumat dan sabtu...waduh bete bgt deh!!!

oia setelah inget2 14 kemaren Valentine Day bo!!! tapi g ingetnya malah besok tgl 18 loh..hari jadi Cavanela...masih pd inget ga yah?? g lagi liat foto2 lama jadinya inget deh...kita pernah V day bareng but buat ultah Cavanela aja deh...waduh lucu bgt d liat foto2nya...yg paling lengkap kali setelah itu pada bubar semua.

minggu2 ini rutinitas gue menjadi datar abis deh...bangun terus makan terus jalan k kantor jan11an terus pulang jam10 malem sampai rumah jam 11 klo beruntung..klo ga jam 12 terus tidur..begitu terus..hiks..hiks...
perlu cari yg bikin g semangat nih...

g nunggu bgt hr minggu buat jalan2 brg2 anak2...well almost 930 g selesain 30 menit sebelum pulang deh..

=( Miss my gud ol days...

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Long time no see

waduh lama bgt nih g ga isi blogger....kemaren g coba masuk ke blogger waduh susah bgt dari warnet deket kampus anton.jadi g cm bisa liat bllogger ona n benny d.

banyak bgt kejadian nih seminggu ini. yg pasti g males bgt krn g dpt shift siang mulu dua minggu ini terus minggu kemaren g dpt pagi lagi....bosen nih malem mulu =p
hr minggu kemaren g janjian ma ane k rmh nath buat liat foto-foto kawinannya irene...si nath yg minta buru2 gtu karena selasa kemaren dia ujian.foto2nya lucu bgt d tp banyak yg ga jd.
sabtu kemaren gue k metneng juga akhirnya buat borong DVD =P waduh g dah lama bgt ga nonton film2...sedih bgt deh...
oia g baru menyelesaikan baca supernova yg ke3...keren bgt deh bikin penasaran buat nunggu yg k4. minggu besok mudah2an jadi nonton tentang dia bareng ane n nath yah...

aduh g sedih deh.tl g atawa team leader tim g d kantor mau pindah akhir bulan ini.namanya miabaek deh walaupun mukanya sedikit jutek hehehe....sedih bgt deh..baru aja menyesuaikan diri n dpt yg enak atasannya eh harus siap2 diganti dulu lagi deh.

well minggu depan g dpt pagi mudah2an bisa lebih sering isi yaw.
udah dulu yah.back to work neh bentar lg pulang jam 10.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

pagi2 gue dah sampai lagi deh di kantor....sudah mulai mencapai titik kejenuhan nih abis dah hari k4 berturut-turut nih.males baget td pagi bangunnya.

kemaren gue pulang bareng nat yah cuma sampai rumah nath sih.rencananya mau k gading tp nath mo pergi ma nyokap nya.but lumayan deh bisa cerita2 juga g ttg my problem...tp jdnya lucu d,g ma nath bkn jd curhat but lebih k menganalisa knapa org itu bisa jadi kayak gitu.

well kesimpulannya sama2 temperamen tapi dengan alasan kurang jelas =p. kemaren g bisa sampe rumah jam4 kurang gtu n nonton Tokyo love story...gila jamdul bgt tug dorama, kanji-rika...lucu bgt g nonton sambil liat style nyan yg bener2 oldies bgt hehehe.

kemaren jg rencananya ma temen2 kantor g mau foto eh karena kebingungan iya...ga..iya...ga sambil nath nunggu kabar, ya udah jam2 an ga jelas g iya aja si nath...tp krn ga enak, g iyain ajaktemu d cl eh tp g telp mba pudju salah satu team g...ktnya ga jd...yo wes lanjut deh....

hari ini g mau k arion nih tp mau pulang bgrg anton ktnya dia lg renov buat distronya...g males ntar sampe sana bingung mo nongkrong mana...bsok aja kali yah... liat ntar sore deh...

udah ah mo ke wc nih...morning cal =p

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

curhatan vita

gue perlu bgt keluarin isi kepala gue nih sampai puas kalo ga bakal brasa kayak dikejar-kejar bgt deh. cape hati bgt...i just need to get out of my chest. kesebelan g ini bisa btambah klo gue liat muka org itu...aduh bt bgt deh g....g seneng d rumah klo dah d kamar gue aja.setiap liat muka org itu gue pinginbgt ngomong "lo tuh maunya apa sih??", masalah lo ma gue apa emang cari2 doang....aduh tuh org kayak cewe bgt n u know everytime i see him,he looks more smaller.
ever feel like that?? when u dont have any respect left for someone u fill that he shrinks in front of u.
yah dikit2 mesti g keluarin bgt klo ga jd kanker buat otak gue =p

kemaren apalg akhirnya org itu kasih steker ac g. gila kan ac g dicabut bo sampe g masuk angin krn pake kipas angin sedangkan kamar g aja ga ada jendela gtu.itu jg dibalikin ipar g stl g bilang ma ka rommy dia blum balikin.itu seminggu yg lalu,kak romi dah mau ngomong but g blang udah tenangin dulu biar buat ka ivo jg but minggu g bilang aja terserah ka k rommy deh. ternyata di telp jg tuh org but u know what steker g dirusakin dulu br dibalikin. cb g bilangin kak rommy bisa parah dia but wes lah g males buru2,samtai aja let God do the rest.

g jd inget cerita ona ttg renungan nya ttg orang2 yg trespass u...well know im in that shoes know.try to forgive but cant forget.


well back to regular life yah. g kemaren seneng bgt deh bisa ketemu elin n benny...i miss them so much...elin do my eyebrow...sakit bo sampe nangis g but as my stylist i trust her hehehe. satu lagi sih yg tau d cabut alis g,putri anak stie.wah jd kangen kumpul2 lg ma anak2 STEI (temen2 anton)eh teman2 gue deh...klo g bilang temen2 anton ntar g dimarahin ma aripe lagi kayaknya waktu itu =P

well sekarang gue dah d kantor lagi. minggu ini g dpt shift dr jam 07.30 sampe 14.00 jadi bisa nonton tv lagi deh stl 2 minggu g dpt shift siang trus. hari ini rencananya g ist dulu trus baru besok klo jd pergi ma elin n sabtu ma anak2 dk kawinan irene.

wah dah mesti siap2 working sblm ketahuan g bk internet hehehe....

Sunday, January 30, 2005

wuuuuuaaaahhhh

dear me,myself and i,
its been a hard week....work at night is tough coz it make u sleepy and lazy =p apalagi setelah makan malam..aduh jd ga konsen bgt deh.antara nerima call n nulisin laporan d aconet,dah ga konsen deh antara otak dan tangan ga sinkron lagi. belum lg klo yg perlu detail lengkap buat follow up...makin pusing deh,jdnya log out dulu deh...waktu log in g berkurang deh. perlu lebih semangat nih gue buat memperbaiki waktu log in gue.
personally, i need to increase my product knowledge for whole indosat product not just mentari but u know what it would need big effort coz its hard n the system that give us all the info we need sometimes not update enough....like last night we can even opened it up =( see??? gimana coba???
klo hari sabtu,minggu dan hari libur kan g ada jemputan di daerah deket rumah gue.tepatnya di pondok kopi. pas bgt kemaren g sampai d pondok kopi n tiba2 hujan deras bo!!! sambil nunggu jemputan ada temen kantor gue yg dah senior lah...wah g banyak dpt masukan seputar kerjaan. g jg dinasehatin bgt deh buat pro aktif n jgn malu2 deh coz menurut dia gue n angkatan2 yg baru masuk ini opportunity buat jd pekerja tetap ato paling ga cb bidang lain lebih besar dibanding angkatan2 lama2 krn mereka2 itu dah mau abis masa kontraknya.
it really open my mind but u know what im used to behind the scene so its kind a scary to step out. g bilang ma senior g klo g suka takut dibilang penjilat gtu lo but kt senior g...keliatan bedanya kok antara lo kiss ass n bener2 mau maju. g kayak dpt enlightment bgt gtu hehehe....
di tepat g itu emang banyak bgt lo bidang2 yg pingin bgt g cb bkn cm call center aja....btw kemaren g liat service level sampe jam15.00 n buat mentari itu ada sekitar 28.000call...gila yah banyak bgt yah pdhal cs reps nya cm 100 an kali...pusing ga loe ^0^
thanks bgt buat temen2 g yg bantu g dlm doa n kata2 utk sabar.walau itu klise but krn dateng dari org2 yg tau g,bener2 bantu loe coz i know n make me realize i have a lot of people that care for me...ciiieee vita....but jujur aja g jg suka liat ipar g n kayaknya dia ga punya temen deh or close friend gtu.ka ivo aja bilang gtu....well i just ope ponakan g yg lucu itu ga kena imbasnya..aduh loe pd mesti liat ponakan g,jessica(jgn ada yg senyum2 yah ?!!!) dengan poni rata kayak boneka jepang bgt deh...lucu... she makes me smile everytime she smiles n laugh even when she pout with her big cheek.
well...today is my holiday,setelah sabtu malam d kantor bo.g jd ga bisa ke kawinan anak77 g ma anton d..jdnya anton ma temen2 KS nya deh. skrg g lg d gading d drop ma anton abis g males bengong lama2 nunggu anton benerin motor jd g jln2 aja deh,iya ga. abis ini baru deh g nyusul.apa g k rmh ane dulu yah...well we'll see lah yah.
okay deh...wish me luck...hope i can deal another week...
GBU

Thursday, January 27, 2005

another night at the office

wah beberapa hari ini g dah lebih tenagn deh sejak insiden d rumah g 2x dgn ipar co gue yg ga jelas juntrungannya... g tenang karena paling ga kel g including kakak ce g yg notabene istrinya tetep belain g walau g disuruh ka ivo utk iya aja lah ma org itu...g sih tau dia ga akan mau ngalah deh...parah bgt tu orang...

untung g dpt malem beberapa hari ini jd seneng bisa pulang dan pergi tanpa melihat muka org itu.tapi males nya skrg ada satu masalah gantung yaitu ac g yg dia cabut pdhal ka romi dah bilangin dia ga suka aneh2 deh ma g...g awalnya takut tuh kak rom ikut2an ntar dia pelampiasannya k kak ivo lg...tapi so far blm sih...cuma kemaren ka romi dah nanya udah dibalikin belum tp g bilang ntar dulu lah dimasalahin nya...

g seneng bgt bisa ke tempat elin kemaren...kebaktian perpisahan bokapnya mo k dumai...tenang bgt d dlm rumah Tuhan.... bokap elin itu menurut g gamabran bokap2 karismatik abis deh..pingin d g curhat ma ortu elin but paling ma nyokap nya aja deh...

trus kemaren2 g seneng jg walau anton semepet kebawa marahnya, pingin gtu dia ketemu ipar co g itu but untungnya skrg dia cm pendengar n bantuin nenangin g aja deh....senengnya di sayang-sayang :p

wah g jd makin kangen kumpul2 ma temen2 g...mudah2an rencana arisan ma anak2 yai jd nih...

weell back to work...

Friday, January 21, 2005

Such a boring day...

wah g dah lama juga ga ngisi yah :) buat ona..maap waktu itu tiba2 ga bisa nya,bung gtu d...pdhal yahoo g masih bisa...krn dibilang ga terkirim ya sudah g tutup aja d =p

selasa kemaren g k bogor.wah senang jln2 tp sayangnya hujan trus!!! g makan d Gumati cafe..keren bgt d,soalnya tempatnya tinggi.smabil melihat ke kali yg deres bgt gtu d bwh.gila jd bayangin Tsunami yg d aceh gtu bo.

terus sepeti biasa k tajur n fo gtu but g males gtu abis harganya sama aja ma jkt.g senengnya malah pas beli roti ungil...wah enak bgt gtu rotinya.klo ga inget mo bwin buat org2 dah g abisin kali hehehe.

terus rabu g kerja but telat abis karena bus yg arah daan mogot terhambat d daan mogot depan indosiar yg jalanannya kayak kali jadi2an gtu.parah bgt d dr pulo gadung d perintis juga kalinya sejajar ma jalanan gtu.g yg naik bus gede udah brasa naik kapal bukan bus...abis d kiri kanan air semua.apalg d asmi wah makin parah d.
untung pas balik dah mulai surut deh..but jkt lagi hujan mulu neh bawaannya mo tidur aja ga kemana mana hehehe...

kamis kemaren g ktemu ma mance n elin,senangnya ketemu teman2ku dan cerita2 sambil maem2 aja.khususnya conello,g lg ngidam brat ma conello neh...mmmhhh...slurp :P...rencananya mo rame2 but seperti biasa ada aja gtu d.beni jg lg kumpul ma temen2 bandnya...wah bpk satu itu dah mo demo rekaman loh hehehe dah mo jd seleb neh lupa neh ma ur sista n brotha.

kumpul2 gtu g jd inget gtu ma temen g yg hilang =( g bilang gtu ma elin,kangen ma cici but antara mau n males nelpon ibu satu itu sejak kejadian waktu itu.little bit miss her but still dissapointed abis dia ga nelpon g paling ga gtu loh...

well tlak about frensip n another life like boyfren kali...maybe klo g bener2 kangen g telpon aja kali yah...cici...cici...what happen with u ???

well buat jumat n also sabtu sekarang g kerja pagi.rencananya hariini mo jln ma anton but dia nemenin temennya k kawinan jd g nunggu aja d di rumah.nyambung curhat g ttg k bt an g itu.akhirnya g dah ngomongin n dasarnya tu anak ga mau masalah2 ya udah lets start again n g janji but buat diri g sendiri yah,biasain buat nenangin about ptemanan si anton lah...jalanin aja but ga boleh semakin brasa memiliki gtu d..GIMANA SETUJU!!!

well...hev go to work again deh skrg...sampe jam4 neh...lg banyak bgt lagi,ga ada call wait sama sekali gtu.Pusing!!!
banyak anak baru n ternyata ada anak smp tarq...ada yg inget farikah ga?? g barengan dia but blm tau satu kelompok pa ga.

wes...i still miss kumpul2 neh....ga sabar nunggu tgl 5 feb buat ngumpul kawinan irene belladona skalian reunian itu pasti =)

GBU

Friday, January 14, 2005

Malam minggu d tempat kerja = (

wow...hari ini diawali dgn k bt an...g sebel bgt deh pokoknya..knapa yah rasa ini ga menghilang saja...g ga suka merasa seperti ini... gimana yah neranginnya...tau ah g pusing...

emang rasa ga enak ma orang itu harus sampe mengorbankan kepentingan pribadi yah...g bt bgt coz of ssorg yg krn ga enaknya jd pergi k suatu tempat bersama teman2nya pdhal dia baru cerita ma gue klo dia tuh cape n butuh istirahat. g tau bgt dia lg banyak kerjaan,apalg awal bulan gini.samp2 klo jalan2 ma gue jg gue ga nahan lama deh...eh tp tiba2 g denger dia jalan yg bukan utk alasan kerja sampe subuh pdhal besok kerja jam 10 lg...
sumpeh g bt bgt!!!

g sms aja utk menuangkan kekesalan krn klo g bilang g ga suka dibilang g nahan2 dia buat gaul tp klo g ingetin istirahat pasti dibilang ga enak ma anak2...

man n boys..what is the different between them???

hari ini jd g sebel bgt d tp g nenangin diri aja deh..tenang2 d kantor sambil kerja dgn bae...

g mau nahan ah ga nelpon ato kabar2in anak itu biar aja deh...tp pasti ntar tu anak marah2 lg...whatever deh...
buetee.....

belakangan ini g lg rapuh bgt deh...butuh senang2 bgt!!! g ga mau jd cengeng but klo g cape g pasti jd cengeng bgt deh =(

kira2 hari ini ato besok tu anak nelpon g ga yah?? soalnya sebenarnya g janjian ma dia besok...yah sudahlah g harus melonggarkan tali deh..
hiks...hiks...hiks...


Thursday, January 13, 2005

Another day gone by...

g seperti biasa lagi d tempat kerja dengan udara dinginnya.tapi hari ini gue seneng karena banyak temen2 yg training bareng gue masuk malem juga jdi kita janjian makan bareng deh walau jam istirahatnya beda beda hehehe....
senangnya ngobrol2 lagi bareng mereka deh...ada winni,wiwik,wati,n magda...yg laennya pada pagi sih jd dah p pulang deh...oia gosip of the day adl temen satu training g yg namanya ali n nurul digosipin lg pendekatan walau lebih kpdfakta sih drpd gosip abis dah sering gtu pulang bareng...lucu bgt dua2nya klo di isengin ma anak2...

well hari ini ga ada yg terlalu menyeramkan masalahnya jd yah ga biin emosi g naik ato turun deh...santai bgt deh...jd ga berasa lg kerja :P

wah cube sebelah gue terdengar lagu glenn yg Januari...makin pingin bobo d jdnya....jd inget nasib cd glenn yg g beli but lagunya banyak yg ga ada suara...baru minggu lg g bisa nuker k menteng...seperti biasa bo bjkan..jd ga enak....

well have back to work neh...dah ngambil waktu istirahat orang gtu :

see u
bubye

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

today life....

wow ini kedua kali gue ngisi deh akhirnya....cerita apa yah?? g sekarng lg d kantor karena dpt shift malem...menurut gue lebih enak deh kerja shift malem,ga brasa cape n kantor g jd lebih sepi ga crowded gtu....terus pulang dianterin lagi makin enak deh :P

sekarang g lg istirahat but mau log in lagi jd males abis dah kbawa dingin udara male...taela vita....wah g jd kangen ma temen2 gue deh klo lg bengong2 gini...sayang mau masuk messenger komputer yg g pake ga bisa he3x....bagus lah jdnya g ga iseng chat hehehe....td seru jg membahas gosip baru antara anak2 baru hehehe...ntar g kasih tau wati n benky untuk liat blogger g ini ah biar bisa pd baca d...

g jd semakin nunggu hari libur gue karena gue bisa ketemui temen2 gue juga co ku tersayang :P
kemaren sempet bt jg sih g ma co ku karena udah g tungguin tiba2 g malah disuruh pulang.bt ga sih...g tau sih maksud dia bae krn takut kmaleman krn hr ini g kerja but telat bgt yaw...g sempet bingung jg tuh pas dibilang dijemput d trus ikut k tempat dia lg bikin laporan distro, coz g takutnya malah dia marah2 lg. tp so far bae2 untungnya...walau pulang dlm keadaan gerimis tp g seneng bisa nemenin dia kerja hehehe

g sekarang nunggu berita dr temen ku tersayang bernama elin dgn kabar tebarunya =p wah pasti seru deh..si bencuy jg pasti dah nungguin detailnya kan..
minggu 2 depan jg setelah ane n nat selesai ujian mudah2an bisa ketemu d...terus cari wajtu buat chat ma ona n vania mudah2an...

wah rencana g banyak jg yah...

well, i miss my old life,but this is a new challengge for me..so i will do my best with this new life.

okah d back to work...

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Me,Myself n I

first time banget nih..padahal temen gue yg bernama iona :P pernah ngajakin bikin blog gini dah lama bgt...tapi baru deh bikinnya...pas bgt deh...deh new year and new blog....dasarmya gue emang suka nulis buku harian n mudah2an melalui blog ini makin sering deh bisa nulis pengalaman harian gue...

d rahun baru ini,gue juga baru dapet kerja setelah lulus dengan susah payah... emang dasar gue yang males kali yah...keenakan sih jd pengacara(penganguran banyak acara) apalg pas g masuk kerja ada yg barengan g masuknya n she is 21 years old..bayangkan masih bisa ngapain aja dia dah kerja seumur gtu dibanding gue :P

well,itu dulu introduksi awal dari gue :P selamat membaca buat teman2 tercinta gue n im ready for ur comment :P

GBU