Suddenly u think...........

i never thought i would be in this position........... i really dont like it.this is the dillema of anything that ive told people not to do when they are in this position.Coz i know logically u have to choose.but it so hard.one hand this is where u already write down ur history together all these years,if u think as a blank paper.but when u see the story in that paper,u become more thoughtfull about everything but u never decided to ended the story coz a lot of thing make u tired but never desperate. but now u see ur other hand where other blank paper start to fill with words of hope n affection. story that i thought i never ever gone through again. story that i never think so much can tore my mind and my heart.

just a flash of something,i start to write that other paper. i have my own story along the way but never think to write in different blank paper.just think this is something along the way.
i really confused right now.im so happy i can feel the butterfly again but on the other hand this is dangerous.i become the old me the one that i try to left behind.the one that need chalengge,crave attention,and all others.

when i see the two paper.my heart start to sank and feel a whole inside of me.i only can pray.but still something inside my head echo 'how about if this is the truth??'
how i ever answer the question.its like one foot on the inside room n other start walking outside??i want to inside and just feel safe but the other i want to try something new so i know which one best? but do i suppose to go outside to know that??
o God.....it stuck in my head.for the first time of my life,i feel the tingle since day one.have u ever feel that?? i know its not logic.but that is what i felt when we first met.i crave so much............
for all u out there who know me.....what should i do????This is the time i really need some backup.i cant decide or wont? i dont know............

='(

Life of his own

Life of my own

day by day, step by step
like a little child learning to walk.
one step ahead from another.

time goes by like a ghost,
stealing your time and experience
hide in every corner of your life
to take it all,before you realize.

you only see in you memory
what time has stolen....
if u cant even notice it
it gone like the wind
without any trace.

cherich every moment u have
like it is ur last day.
u wont regret in your memory
or even when u cant trace it anymore.
but you know for sure
that memory has something special
coz you cherish it...

every step has its own mark.
believe it or not,
it will leave marks....

So follow your path of life
Coz that is Life of my own.