Too good to be true

Dear my heart,

I know right now u feel out of balance. U repeat the same thing that this is too good to be true. Never know u end up feeling this way again. never know u have the courage to take a chance again with all the circumstances around u.
Did someone make u brave enough? Did someone make u fall enough.
the answer yes.
I still dont know for sure what he feeling for me for real. but through his action i can see that there is efforts that he make. he would make sacrifices for me. That little thing that for so long never ever someone did for me.
I saw him long time ago n i feel something inside me. But at that time a lot of things happen inside me n i dont even have the courage to know him deeper.I think i hurt so much that i afraid i will be hurt again by him.the one that from the moment i lay my eyes on him something aching inside.
I know u still said too good to be true but let this precious moments of ours will stay in my mind forever. He really make me feel special and loved.Whatever happen with us in the future, i cherish every moment with him.
I feel like someone that have been thirsty forever and suddenly someone give me a glass of water.

we still need steps in this relationships but one thing for sure i feel bless i met him in this time of my lowest.He didnt pick me up but he support me to pick myself up.Maybe the future wont hold for us but for this moment i will hold on to forever.

Thank you for being by my side and make me feel loved and worth it.

For
Si jelek and Si bodoh ^_^

Funny Life

Funny ... how i felt like de javu bout my experiences. all just bcoz of his age? coz the attitude is different. this time he knows how to do with me. i know this thing maybe seldom happen in his life. maybe treat a girl or woman like this is a habit.but right now im enjoying it.i like him to treat me like that.

Funny...coz just by being together 3 times i can feel like this with him. that one moment make i see u differently. i see u all the time.we laugh together when we with our friend... we fight n argue like children well im the one like children ^_^ i never realize u care. i know you nice but i thought thats all.

Funny...why i think u like this.in the time when i feel so lost hope with romance n man. dont believe i can think bout romantic thing with anyone seriously.just being someone girl friends not girlfriends.

The most funny thing is we have basic different thing that in my age like this i should have been more strict.

U make me laugh thats make u so adorable... Just enjoy the moment.Moment to really laugh from the heart.

This is really funny phase of my life. ups n downs real quickly.hope my heart can take this phase. coz it on the edge after the last incident.

Tired

It start to eat my body alive
makes me fill so tired
this feeling is killing me inside slowly
i keep digging my hole deeper
feel like cant get out anymore

It crawling inside my head
eating my brain piece by piece
can keep focus on what i want
dont know where should i go

It stuck deep in my heart
make it bleeding slowly
all the hope, love n betrayal runs through it
feel dont care about anything

let me stay here
let me try to stand on this alone
let it suck me deeper so i cant let go anymore
so i wont hoping to love or be loved again

Cause im tired of believing