dear myself,

wah bulan ini lg cape2 n bt2 nya ma jadwal kerja g nih...lagi sering bgt dpt kerja sabtu-minggu...hiks...hiks... bt deh...

tadi malem g aja tidur jam2 krn anton bela2in mau pas teng jam 12 d riumah rendy karena tuh anak ultah...ada onang n dindin juga...aduh si dindin itu lucu bgt tanpa tu anak hrs biat ngelucu...udah g ketawa mulu ngeliat tu anak b2 mirip gtu lama2 kayaka kaka-ade hehehehe....


oia g mo update last info ttg kekecewaan...g jd takut deh bila perubahan itu berhubungan dengan org yg sayang bgt apakah itu sahabat ato keluarga or even pacar2.... g brasa lagi berdiri di atas kapas yg salah bergerak sedikit robek ato terbang....

kayak skrg dhn sahabat g...or is she still consider me as best friend or just one of the guys?? coz she treat me like that...make me feel not worth it...i hope im not going to be like that...like i said to cavanela before...klo g dah anggep mereka jd keluarga bgt jd klo ada apa2 they will be the first to know or maybe second after family =p but i wont let them in the dark for so long...

it hurts u know...like being betray by someone u love.... i know ive been there when high school when cavanela grow apart but after that we grow stronger...for this problem, i really dont know...i think we will grow apart...coz i really feel i dont know her anymore...

everything that she told me doesnt come in action...all she share about her n anything i dont know if that really her or just...??

well...thats about it.... im talking to myself over and over again to have faith but its hard... i just follow what will be happen...but one yhing for sure...it already break apart .....